"是我想太多 你总这样说 但你却沒有真的心疼我 是我想太多 我也这样说 这是唯一能安慰我的理由 我想我沒有错怪了什么 虽然你不说 都是错在我 太晚我才懂 爱了你太多... " - 想太多- 李玖哲
Translation: "Think Too Much/Overthink" - Nicky Lee.
"It was me who think too much. You always said that. But you never really love me. It was me who think too much. I said that myself. This is the only reason that could comfort me...I think I didn't misinterpret anything. Even if you didn't say anything, it's all my fault. Too late to understand.. loving you too much.."
He was leaning against the tall glass window. His image merging beautifully with the city lights scenery. She was looking at him then shifted her gaze to the moon, when she realized he shifted his gaze to her way. She slowly sipped on her Sour Apple Martini that she ordered. Words seemed to hang in the air. The soft piano playing, the singer was singing the request of the couple on the next seat. After feeling his gaze on her face, she dared herself to look back. Even in the dim lights, she could see his smile and then she asked "Now..what are we going to do?" He put down his glass and sighed.." I don't know"
He has eluded that question for almost 5 years. She has been waiting to ask it since like forever. He smiled awkwardly to her. She could feel that the answer won't be what she had always hoped. He could feel her dissapointment in her eyes. He quickly said "No.. It's me who can't make a decision. You know how I felt about you.. It's just..."She interuppted him before he could finish, "You are not sure, right?" Right after saying them, she felt that she actually was helping him in breaking her own heart. He shifted in his seat, his way of showing his uneasiness. She smiled and closed her eyes, trying to shift the tears from her eyes to her heart. He sighed.."I like you, a whole lot,.. I want to be with you.. I..." He stopped and lost his words again. She interrupted him again, "You just don't want to be with me forever, you just can't love me." He looked at her. His expression carried a mixture of confusion, dissapointment, hurt and a tinge of relief. She hated this look of his, but she forced herself to smile and said "I understand,..." After taking a big gulp of her martini, she continued "We would make a lousy couple anyway". He almost catched her crying from those words.
He picked up the phone and dial her number. She didn't pick up. He knew she was there and was trying to elude him. Just like how he always eluded her calls or emails. Then came her voice from her answering machine, he tried hard to sound calm, "Hi, It's me. I just want to let you know that I'm boarding the plane in 10 minutes. Look, I wanted to.. sorry... Sorry..that I.. uhm.. We.. uhm... I..Well, you have to take care ok ? During the time when I can't see you, I wish you all the best in uhm.. everything.. .. ok .... uhm..." At the background, the stewardress called all passengers to board the plane, he looked at his watch, hoping that at the last minute his mind could make a rash decision to stay behind for her. But the thought of the future scared him and he finally clutched the phone and continued to say, "Well, they called me. I got to go.. so.. uhm..." 10 seconds went by, finally "Goodbye" He hang up and picked his hand carry and walked through the boarding gate.
On the other end, she knew her phone rang, she knew it was him who called but she decided not to pick it up. She stood near the phone when his voice echoed through the answering machine, she tried her best not to breath or made any sounds, even though she knew he wouldn't hear any. She heard the broadcast and at the very corner of her heart, she had hoped that he would make some rash decision and decided not to go.. but her mind told her to give up. Then she heard him saying his goodbye and then the end of the recording. She smiled softly and said "I think too much..understand too late, love him too much.." Then she pressed the rewind button, and back to the part where he was saying his last sentence. She heard his voice saying "Goodbye" echoed again and again, and finally, she followed him.. "Goodbye" and pressed the delete button. The answering machine beeped "Message deleted."
His plane took flight. He saw the houses grew tiny and tinier and then he decided to just looked away. She left her house. She just stepped outside her apartment when it started to drizzle. She let the drops of water touched her face. Her tears joined the water from the sky to celebrate the perfect ending for a dying love that was never given any chance to bloom.
Translation: "Think Too Much/Overthink" - Nicky Lee.
"It was me who think too much. You always said that. But you never really love me. It was me who think too much. I said that myself. This is the only reason that could comfort me...I think I didn't misinterpret anything. Even if you didn't say anything, it's all my fault. Too late to understand.. loving you too much.."
He was leaning against the tall glass window. His image merging beautifully with the city lights scenery. She was looking at him then shifted her gaze to the moon, when she realized he shifted his gaze to her way. She slowly sipped on her Sour Apple Martini that she ordered. Words seemed to hang in the air. The soft piano playing, the singer was singing the request of the couple on the next seat. After feeling his gaze on her face, she dared herself to look back. Even in the dim lights, she could see his smile and then she asked "Now..what are we going to do?" He put down his glass and sighed.." I don't know"
He has eluded that question for almost 5 years. She has been waiting to ask it since like forever. He smiled awkwardly to her. She could feel that the answer won't be what she had always hoped. He could feel her dissapointment in her eyes. He quickly said "No.. It's me who can't make a decision. You know how I felt about you.. It's just..."She interuppted him before he could finish, "You are not sure, right?" Right after saying them, she felt that she actually was helping him in breaking her own heart. He shifted in his seat, his way of showing his uneasiness. She smiled and closed her eyes, trying to shift the tears from her eyes to her heart. He sighed.."I like you, a whole lot,.. I want to be with you.. I..." He stopped and lost his words again. She interrupted him again, "You just don't want to be with me forever, you just can't love me." He looked at her. His expression carried a mixture of confusion, dissapointment, hurt and a tinge of relief. She hated this look of his, but she forced herself to smile and said "I understand,..." After taking a big gulp of her martini, she continued "We would make a lousy couple anyway". He almost catched her crying from those words.
He picked up the phone and dial her number. She didn't pick up. He knew she was there and was trying to elude him. Just like how he always eluded her calls or emails. Then came her voice from her answering machine, he tried hard to sound calm, "Hi, It's me. I just want to let you know that I'm boarding the plane in 10 minutes. Look, I wanted to.. sorry... Sorry..that I.. uhm.. We.. uhm... I..Well, you have to take care ok ? During the time when I can't see you, I wish you all the best in uhm.. everything.. .. ok .... uhm..." At the background, the stewardress called all passengers to board the plane, he looked at his watch, hoping that at the last minute his mind could make a rash decision to stay behind for her. But the thought of the future scared him and he finally clutched the phone and continued to say, "Well, they called me. I got to go.. so.. uhm..." 10 seconds went by, finally "Goodbye" He hang up and picked his hand carry and walked through the boarding gate.
On the other end, she knew her phone rang, she knew it was him who called but she decided not to pick it up. She stood near the phone when his voice echoed through the answering machine, she tried her best not to breath or made any sounds, even though she knew he wouldn't hear any. She heard the broadcast and at the very corner of her heart, she had hoped that he would make some rash decision and decided not to go.. but her mind told her to give up. Then she heard him saying his goodbye and then the end of the recording. She smiled softly and said "I think too much..understand too late, love him too much.." Then she pressed the rewind button, and back to the part where he was saying his last sentence. She heard his voice saying "Goodbye" echoed again and again, and finally, she followed him.. "Goodbye" and pressed the delete button. The answering machine beeped "Message deleted."
His plane took flight. He saw the houses grew tiny and tinier and then he decided to just looked away. She left her house. She just stepped outside her apartment when it started to drizzle. She let the drops of water touched her face. Her tears joined the water from the sky to celebrate the perfect ending for a dying love that was never given any chance to bloom.
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