Tired, dissapointed, but..

Dear You,

I am very tired right now..
Have been dissapointed for years now..
Should think that these feelings have been inside so long but I tried to block it out..
Been trying to reach you but could not get any replies...
Are we lost in communication?
Or are you simply not answering?
I needed to know back then.. I need to know even now..

Why am I still holding on to you, when I am tired?
Why am I still believing in you, when I am dissapointed?
Irony is it, saying how much I believe in you but yet..
Showing how much I am so full of myself
Showing how much I am not relying on you...

But why am I still grabbing the thread so tightly?
I should know the answer by now..
Only that my stubborn self kept disagreeing
I hold on tight...
Because even though this is a very long and dark tunnel,..
I thought I see some vainest, smallest, dot of light
In hoping to find you in the end.

I hope this time...
I will find you there..
Please, let me find you there...
That's how badly I want you.

Texas' cavities

Men's health conducted a survey for best and worst teeth across 100 large USA cities and found out that Lubbock, Texas is the winner for WORST teeth. The city scored the perfect score 100 among all the cities. High Fluoride content in Lubbock's water is argued as the reason of the teeth condition.

All the Texas cities ranked below 5oth (with #1 as the best teeth). With El Paso comes in at #95, San Antonio at #89, Dallas at #87, Corpus Cristi at # 70, Arlington at # 30 (ranking as the best Teeth in Texas state), Houston at #69, Fort Worth # 56. Our dear Austin comes in in the middle at # 75 (holding the report card of D- for teeth conditions).
Madison, WI came in as the winner for best teeth, followed by Nashville, TN as the runner up, and Raleigh, NC as the second runner up.
For more info you could read them up at: http://www.wtopnews.com/?nid=106&sid=1364766

I guess, when you meet people from Madison, please wear your sunglasses. Or they should just smile more during winter cos it will melt all the snows...

Half Day yuhuu..

Just a some fun fact..

You know there's people who blushes easily even though they're actually not feeling shy or angry or has been standing outside under the sun for too long or got froze bite? without slapping themselves?

Apparently, there's a medical term for it : Idiopathic Craniofacial Erythema. This is a disease where a person blushes easily or with slight or even without provocation. For more info on this please visit: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Blushing

Hm..suddenly remembering someone who is blushing as fast as the speed of light...how are you doing? I hope you are doing wonderful in your MBA programme...remember to update us on your news.. don't go getting married without letting me know.. I can't take another shock..not in 1 week.. please ..

Ciao~otshugaresama deshita...

what a troublesome man..

I was sitting in my office when an indonesian bapak kept on pestering me on his flight tickets, have already explained to him, he has go to through his tour agent, but still very stupidly asked me to change. Reluctantly, I called the airline and got the confirmation that he has to go through his travel agent...after conveying everything to him, he left..then came back looking smart (to himself, i found him annoying), and told me " I have managed to change my tickets, the tour agent said everything is changed, but could you check it for me again?). What a stupid man, which part of "TOUR AGENT CHANGED TICKET ALREADY" don't you understand?

What a drag... now I'm still waiting for this totally stupid ValuAir to answer my call while he's sitting there checking emails. Lucky you, pak.... (~. ~)'''

Well, my mood is not too good to begin with...I was sleepy and groggy because I persistenly watched my "Haikei, ChiChiue-sama" up till Ep.10 when my internet connection went down on me.. it was about 1.30 AM. But the dorama is coming to a bitter-sweet ending. The drama starring: Arashi no Kazunari Ninomiya and Crows Zero no Kuroki Meisa.

It's a slow-paced human drama, (warning: people who loves Hana-Kimi-Japan, Nodame Contabile, Hana Yori Dango, please avoid to prevent you from sleeping or blaming it on Nino, as he acts very good in this one) but its sweet, funny, and heart-warming in all the family-oriented drama. Lots and lots of conversations between the characters, which made the drama feels draggy sometime. But within the conversation, funny dialogues and expressions will be shown, sweet, insperational words or quotes will be used, making the conversations essensial in showing the characters relationships and personalities as well as Kagurazaka's (where the movie is set on) culture and tradition. Just like the other Japanese drama these days ( I don't really know why they use this pattern), Haikei is closing with an open-ended ending. You might want to give it a try if you fancy the like of "Tiger and Dragon (been watching it over and over and never got bored of it)", "Ushi ni Negai Wo: Love & Farm", "Summer Snow". For plot summary please visit: http://wiki.d-addicts.com/Haikei%2C_Chichiue-sama.

Apart from that, I received a call from my friend yesterday, after almost a year staying in the same small country with growing technology, we were lost in communication. She called because she had tried to send me an sms but could not get any reply from me. Apparently she was still using my old mobile number. She sent me an sms-ed (which i did not get), telling me she is (or was, now) getting married. She got married in February this year (the signing of ROM), and the reception was held on 17 March. I was shocked, firstly, then happy, secondly, then sad. What is wrong with me? I did not even know that my good friend was married for almost 1 month now!! Well, I wish them all the very best and pray for their marriage to be blessed by God always.

Talking about marriage, my best friend is getting married this December 6th 2008. 2 or 3 years ago, we still talked about how we was still single and why the right person never come to find us, then suddenly last year December, during a brief phone call, she told me that she is getting married. I was shocked (why am I shocked all the time?). I was happy for her and excited for her at the same time. At least her prince has come to fetch her for a happy-ending.

Lucky my parents have limited access and abilities to the internet (my mom can't even search the web, while my father uses the internet for emails, internet banking, forex and securities info, and nothing else) or else all the walls in hell will break when they hear about those two.

Me? Maaa~ lets just say, I still prefer to wait a little longer...well, its good when you have found that special someone, but if you have not, why bother to drown yourself in depression? Life is to short to just get fixated in one thing, isn't it? :P "Life is hard, dakedo Happy" (Quoted from: Arashi's short drama with the same title)

People like to say that the life of those in love is always pinkish, or one single pastel colors...well, the life of those who are singles is multi-colors. Which one would you pick? I still go for colored Hi-Def TV anytime now. \(^__^)/.

Leave you with this quote: "Faith is a continuation of reason" - William Adams

Lust...

Well, the reason for the post's title is this: Coach's Signature Stripe Tote !!!-> Brass/Khaki/Blue -> Brass/Khaki/White

Kyaa.. I love the blue color and the white. It is selling at US$298 in US (Approx. SG$ 420) and at S$605 in SG. Should I act dumb and just buy the bag ? then live my next month by scraping for excess food from my office? or Should I use the economics theories that I have learned my head-off to study and assume the consequences of whether to buy or not. Let's assume that I buy the bag.... it will bring my Utility up and decrease my savings, but in the end will increase the overall GDP since now there is an additional individual that actually can spend more on imported goods. Now, let's throw in another assumption, assuming I buy the bag, other ladies (read:my sister) will think likewise and all will buy the bag, it will create a win-win situation for all the ladies and also COACH and Singapore economy as a whole. Well it's all for the better of the whole population right? (^___^)

I hope I have not humiliated myself using my stupid economic theory. Hhh...what a thing to think when China and Tibet are in a difficult clashing situation (I have never seen Dalai Lama reacted with so much anger before), when US is faced with difficult choices between Obama and Hillary (Black president? or Woman president? well both have had a movie, or tv series made for each so why should it matters?), when Singapore is trying to catch the most wanted man in the country.

But something I learned, I am really really an impatient person. I was waiting for the rain to stop in front of the KFC with all the to-go lunches on my right hand when I prayed a simple prayer. "God, please if possible make this rain stop". I just finished praying...5..no 3 minutes later, I leaped out from the covered area and ran across to the MRT station and bought the 3.95 umbrella. I was feeling proud that I could find that cheap umbrella at Guardian near the MRT station that when I came out from the MRT station's escalator, it almost made me faint. It was only a drizzle now, I could just jump over and ran a little to go back to my office without even spending the 3.95. Then something slapped me hard. "You should have wait longer". How many times have I made the same decisions? Have asked God for help but still kept trying myself? I guess...I should learn to wait patiently and to continue waiting in prayer rather than to think that I could help God in doing something for me. What a stupid idea.. HE DID NOT NEED HELP. HE KNOWS THE BEST TIME FOR ME.

Some update on the weather today: It's a clear morning today but a bad rain almost ruined my lunch break, but thanks to my $3.95 umbrella I could make it through the rain ( just like Mariah Carey, minus the photoshop-ed legs and tummy).

Well will just leave this post with these mumblings and ..ohh .. I learned something as well for the movie "The other Boleyn girl" starring Natalie Portman, Eric Bana and, Scarlett Johansson. Natalie Portman's character, Anne Boleyn passed her necklace decades, eons later to Betty Suarez a.k.a Ugly Betty.

Ta ta for Now..

Happy Easter 2008

Hola amigos,

first and foremost, Happy Easter to all of you. May Peace, Love, and Joy will always follow you wherever you go :)

Something that I learned today: Jesus never asked about your sin, He only cares that you have come back to Him so that your relationship will be restored and He will put back His Trust and Love in you.

Watched Crows Ep. Zero with my sisters and cousin during the Good Friday. A high school gangster movie starring Shun Oguri and Yamada Takayuki. Even though I said high-school, it did not have that sweetness of youth kind of high-school. In fact the only thing that showed the characters were high-school students probably was the uniform. The director and the script-writer tried their best to minimize the love-story as not to turn the movie into another "High School Musical". Based on a manga by Takahashi Hishori, the movie is slow to medium pace, comedy-action with some blood spilled. The best scene for the movie to me is the part where the two gangs ready to battle it out in the rain.

I recommend the movie to people who like action, those who like japanese-style film directing, boys who value friendship as high as love, girls who love bad boys, or well, girls who love Oguri-kun or Yamada-kun, and guys who love Kuroki Meisa. It's a money well-spent definitely :)

I was going to watch Great Teacher Onizuka dorama again because the last time I watched I did not watch it with English sub so I didn't really understand the whole point. I will try to enjoy the dorama as much as when I watched it for the first time. I watched the dorama in 2000 several months before I left for USA. I watched it from 8 PM at night and finished at about 7.30 AM in the morning. I did not sleep and watched it from episode 1 through final and loved every minutes of it. :) I will not try to pull that same stunt again this time due to working commitment. Argh...how's time has changed? like Spider-man's uncle said: with great power, comes great responsibilities. In my case, with additional age, comes great responsibilities (-_-)"'

I leave you with something some lyrics I heard from the church on Friday: " But Lord let me be, what You want me to be. Your words i will strive to obey. My life i now give, for You i will live. And walk by Your side all the way".

Good night and Welcome to the "Monday-Blues Club" ( I should buy the "Reasons not to go to work on Monday" book recommended by the book-store just now :) )

It's all like a knotted thread..

Hola amigos..

Just came back to work today... huff..felt like my feet is still burning from all the rushing...is the trip to Jakarta worth it? you asked me, hmm it's not enough...as during the leave i constantly looked at my work-phone to check if i got any message. I hate that...after returning...I can't really catch my breath... i know u might think that I did have that 2 day break,...u should try to run in my high heels today to know what it calls to be multi-tasking. Well, enough of me yapping stupidly away.. just take it from me: "If you ever..ever have your heart broken by someone, just try running 3 hours straight in a high heels, suddenly your mind will be clear"

Argh.. it's so vexing that I could not think of anything anymore today! .. I feel like watching a Jap-dorama..but Ushi is too slow-pace for me.... always hesistant to watch K-dorama since the story is always draggy and ending is a little bit forced... should I just sleep? But I don't want to waste my time relaxing at home.. arghhhhhhhhhh decision..decision...choices and ...arghhh vexing..

Going to where you are..

I am going to Jakarta today ..Yuhuuu .. I know it's only less than a week and probably won't do much there..but I think I deserve a nice weekend :)

I know for sure I will miss my Jap-dorama, but it's also good chance for me to buy some from ITC hohoh.. hope they will have lots and lots of my Kenichi-san...I know I'm behaving like a young fan-girl, but you should catch his doramas or movies some time.. trust me when I see a talent.. I see a talent ..hohoho.. I always think I should start my own talent agency haha.. anybody want to be a business partner ? I found this pic on Yahoo Image. Thank you.

Argh I love airport, I always think that by being in the airport, bring backs all of the nostalgic and warm feeling in me.. don't ask me what.. i can't really say it but.. that's what I always feel. I guess..the thought that you are nearing the people you love is what causes me to like airport. Not to forget the shopping opportunities inside it..... (^___^)V Duty free.

I saw God's work today. I was with a German patient today, he is a doctor and when he was brought in to our hospital, he almost died of pnumonia as well as mental delusional. The first time I saw him in ICU, he had this scary look on his face and he was so weak, he could barely talk. He will be discharged this Sunday on a flight back to Germany. He was telling me his story, laughing when he said he will be going home and crying when he said that he was almost died. Through that 15 minutes, he laughed and then cried, and then laughed again. When he learned that I am going home to Jakarta today, he said "It's the most important thing in life, is to have the people you love with you or near you. U have fun and May the God, who is very good, keep you safe always" Then he cried again, he apologized to me when he kept on crying, but I understand, that tears are happy-tears. I will never forget him. He has experienced God's love and he knew it.

I'll see you in Jakarta. :)

Wondering if this is enough..

It's 10.43 on Thursday morning. I am going to home to Jakarta tomorrow on a 6.05 Pm flight.
I wish the time will go faster on me today.

Don't have anymore patients today. My coligs went home for MC. I guess it's the season for Flu again...please don't come tomorrow, just said that you are having a cold --> to patients that supposed to come tomorrow.

Learned about "The Doctor of Death" from USA, Jack Kevorkian. He assisted about 130 terminally ill patients in "assisted suicide", by using "Thanatron-or death machine", which consisted Sodium Thiopental (to induce coma), Pancuronium Bromide (to act as a muscle relaxant), and Potassium Chloride (to prevent spasm during the dying process as well as causing heart attack while patient is sleeping or coma). Thanatron is attached to the IV drip and patients will be the one pushing the device button that could send these substances inside their bodies. Jack Kevorkian was jailed for 8 years for his crime, as a second degree murderer. You can find more information on him through http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jack_Kevorkian.

Currently I am obsessing over Kenichi Matsuyama-san from the Death Note installments as well as from Sexy Voice and Robo. How to put this...he is cool and talented in a quirky-dorky-wierd-cute-sexy-average-funny-type of guy but at least he makes you want to watch his movies. Those people made the right choice to use him as "L" as he played "L" as if he IS "L". (This is just a mumbling thing, you may skip if you are not interested :) ) Not to forget those fingers...

Also learned that, God's promise will always be ON TIME. Will never be too soon, or never be too late. When He said it will come, IT WILL. So what we can do during this waiting period? Never act smart, never think you can assist Him in bringing the promise to you. He doen't need your assistance. Remember Sara, Abraham's wife, she assisted and caused grief to herself. Study the words, remember it, and pray hard. Pray that we don't stray while waiting, cause we know that at the end of the day, He will fulfill that promise.

Watched "Step Up 2, The Streets" (or something about the Streets) on Sunday. Did not really enjoy the story, did not really enjoy the dances, in short, did not really like the movie. I think the movie failed to show the passion that the characters have for dancing or life, too focus on the main characters problems, which are not very crucial (but hey, everything is crucial when you are 16-18 years old), which made the whole show cheesy, stereotypical, and benched all the supporting characters, who may have more interesting story to tell, rather than "moving to Texas". So in the end, they should call the movie "Step down 2 to gutters"

It's 11.18. Damn, I only been writing these for 15 minutes... I thought...arghhh Please HELP Me!! Hey..say.. should I watch my movie in the office? ..*crunchyroll is loading, putting title in the search box....talk to you later *